Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
Sighs. My O's results are coming out in about two weeks time. Everyone tells me that they screwed their papers when I probe about it. But I know that they obviously did not, like I did. I'm really afraid.I regretted for not studying at all, until around august, when I finally woke up. What if my results can't put me into a good jc or poly course? What if I'm not good enough to qualify for jobs that I want next time? What if I do not have a promising future? Or, do I even have one? If I did not do well in O level, my past achievements would mean nothing at all. What I have been working towards since young would be dashed. Since young, I have been self-motivated to study. My parents did not push me or put me in tuition class like what most parents did. But I did go for tuitions when I'm in p6, I initiated for it though. They had never praised me for the results that I have achieved or the slightest things, like scoring full marks in exams or topping in class. I longed for their praise. That I even flaunt to them my achievements by asking them for signatures on my scripts that the teacher never even asked for. They never bother about me. I have all the freedom that everyone wanted as a teenager. I wished for someone to restrict me and set curfews for me. I wished for someone to check the msges in my phone to find out if I hang out with the right people. I wished for someone to force me to do my homework. I know this is insane. Because a typical teenager would want their parents to nag less and give them more freedom. Maybe it was because of them that I strayed off, turning into a person who do not give a damn about studies and returning home late. I was lucky enough not turn to smoking and drugs. I accepted christ :) And I met shawn :) These are the two events that turned my life around. They happened in the same year. I'm really thankful to God. Although I have been away from church for two years, I still kept my faith in christ. I believe in Him, because I have tasted the love of God. Not all christian does. Shawn, you hold a veryveryvery special place in my heart. This may sound cliche but seriously, without you, I may not be alive and kicking like I am now. ILOVEYOU :)
